Saturday, August 05, 2006

I woke up

I woke up to the sound of a strong wind.
It is a strange sound to explain.
It kept getting louder and louder.
But this was no wind.
The sound of the F-16s as they approach is like one single gust of wind.
Only a lot louder. And louder. And louder.
Then.
Silence.
And then.
BOOM BOOM.
This was a lot closer to me than anything they had bombed before.
BOOM BOOM.
I switched the TV on thinking I was lucky that we had electricity.
BOOM BOOM.
Oozaii.
This area was a few minutes away from my house by car.
BOOM BOOM.
Then the wind again.
I thought of all those poor people under the fire.
BOOM BOOM.
I could see the fires but it was too dark to see the smoke.
BOOM BOOM.
Do you think they bomb at night so the TV's will be unable to really show how bad it is? Just a thought.
I stood on my balcony looking up. Trying to see. To find them.
BOOM BOOM.
Do you know when you sit next to a speaker in a club and its sound makes your heart beat at the same rhythm? This is how it felt.
BOOM BOOM.
More deaths.
BOOM BOOM.
More refugees.
BOOM BOOM.
More livelihoods lost.
BOOM BOOM.
No sleep tonight.
BOOM BOOM.
The sound intermingled with the call for morning prayer.
BOOM BOOM.
BOOM BOOM.
BOOM BOOM.
And then it stopped.
And I drifted back to sleep feeling lucky that I was sleeping in my own house.
And what is the worst feeling in the world?
When you wake up in the morning...and think twice about switching the TV on...because you do not want to see how bad it really was last night.

6 Comments:

Blogger yves said...

thank you.

thank you for being able to write at a time like this and share whats going on with the rest of the world. people do care and people are spreading hte word.

im in canada and i just got back from a morning bike ride (which i feel guilty for).

but your words are getting around. my friends are starting to read more and more blogs like this and are getting more and more disgusted.

i wish my neighbourhood could feel the wind yuore talking about...maybe then we could take a stronger position.

please keep writing

5:28 AM  
Blogger Margaret said...

Rena,
All I can say is that some of us are hearing you and feeling your situation as much as is possible from so far away.
I will hold you in my heart. Every morning I wake up hoping that there is a cease-fire.

5:41 PM  
Blogger xatunk said...

Hi Zena, are u ok? You haven't writing for 2 days...???

3:21 AM  
Blogger Fran said...

As I sit in my summer patio in So Cal, I read your blog and my heart pounds with fear for you--and I can't keep the tears from flowing. I just don't understand this at all. What can we do to help you?

11:08 PM  
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Blogger wadi said...

I have been through it, I used to live near the ghbayreh. My, brother lost his house. It really sucks. this is like hell when you are near the bombs. I really hope their won't be another situation in Lebanon, not even a single bullet

1:55 AM  

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